Dear you,

Hello once again,

Yes I am trying to make this a weekly thing as I know it's good to be committed to something creative. But here is the problem, I am terrible at committing to most things.

I am no good when it comes to writing a story, I'll either half write something or make a story board, then that's it. No more to the story, no more for my characters to explore, no world to get lost in. A great example of this is a story I started to write about a year ago, about a friend I met and how that had developed into a surprising friendship that lasted about six years. Well, I only got to writing the first two years of my actual life when I just stopped.

Or there is the time I started reading 'All I Know Now' by Carrie Hope Fletcher, but I got into the second title of the first chapter and then bam! I put the book down and not picked it back up again.

All this goes the same for my YouTube channel, I started it four years ago, attempting a form of vlogs or just any content. Now it's just a platform for me to make music playlists and keep up with popular youtubers. Not creative at all, if I am honest.

Now, on the complete other hand, I have no problem to committing to netflixs, as an example. (Yeah I have a terrible addiction to a few series on there) and it has come to my attention that this is not healthy. 

I guess what I am trying to say is that I am spending way to much time committing to mind numbing activities rather then creative outlets that allow me to express myself (well except this blog). 

Have we,,as a generation, forgot what it is like to pick up a pen and paper and just doodle? Nothing in particular, nothing spectacular, just lots of lines and dots and all sorts. 

Have we forgotten what it is like to finish a story, or script, or even a poem? How satisfying that feeling is to know something is completely.

I understand somethings were never meant to be complete, somethings are better left for us (as a community) to look at and use our imagination to full explore its potential.

But for me, personally, when I don't finish things, it makes me uneasy. It's hard to believe but I cannot sleep if I knowing that haven't finished that story.

Four more years left to add and it makes me sleepless, not because I'm a perfectionist but because I don't want to forget anything. Not one detail because if anything were to happen to me I don't want to be remembered as the gi who never completed anything in her lifetime.

It would be nice when I am about forty I can look back on these things with my other half, (or my children (maybe even grandchildren)) and laugh and enjoy what I did when I was younger.

Anyway, I would like to ask one little thing of you, the reader of my blog, is could you possibly try and not look to the computer screen for the answer to fill that hour of boredom, perhaps just grab a sheet of paper and write a letter. 

If you do this, send me a picture or scan it and send it to me. Perhaps I'll make a story from you my lovely reader.

Thank you for taking the time to read this, it means the world to me. 

Sincerely,

Sophie